Update

Thanks to everyone for their kind words – even to the troll who commented that I was being “melodramatic,” which, duh.  Are you just visiting this Web site? This site has been a petri dish for melodrama since way back!

ejshea.com: making mountains out of molehills since 1999!

I like the trolls, mostly because it’s nice that I still have a couple who care enough to stir things up.

Anyway, it’s worth pointing out, things got a little rough after I posted that entry. It’s tough, when your worst fears are realized, to maintain grace and composure. I’ve tried, but I’ve managed to lose my shit completely on a couple of occasions these past two weeks.  It was then that I turned to Geneen Roth and the skies parted, the heavens sung.

I’ll go into her work at another time, but suffice it to say that reading statements like (and I’m summarizing here) “People who are obsessive need drama. They have to make up drama where none exists because they’ve never really known a life without it.” hit home so marvelously that I got teary-eyed, put the book down, continued my walk home and got the hell over myself. Job loss = end of the world if you’re little Erin Shea. But job loss for adult Erin Shea is not, and does not have to be as such.

Ever since then, I’ve nutted up. It’s still not easy, and I have to be as present as possible so my mind doesn’t get away from itself, but I’ve stopped checking and rechecking our bank accounts every 5 minutes.

So that’s really it for now. I’m lucky to be in love with my job, and the people with whom I work, as it’s done wonders for keeping The Crazy at bay. That and the Geneen Roth. Seriously. Good stuff.